Pieces

I often think life should be more like a movie of sorts....not so much for the humor, the drama, the pointless banterings...all of which are importnat, of course, but because life needs musical accompaniment.  i wish each hour or so, we could pick songs from around us and attach them to our lives and anywhere we go, we'd have this background music playing telling the world how we're feeling at the moment.  this way we wouldn't have to put on so many masks that hide our true emotions.  i think it's a bit unfair that many people believe Christians aren't allowed emotions such as anger, fear, frustration, jealousy, or doubt.  Christians are human, are they not?  and as humans, we are allowed to feel.  and these feelings are not always suppose to be positive and upbeat.  people who know i work for the church have the false-impression that because i do, i must have all the answers to happiness and emotional adhesives.  i don't,  they seem surprised when my facade cracks and they see a hint of anger, impatience, or cynicism.  the thing is, it's taken me years to not be one of those people who think Christians should all be happy and carefree all the time.  in fact, the more i learn to be Christian, the more i am at accepting all my faults and failures.  they aren't easier to live with, but at least i'm not living in denial.  and i find my conversations with God need not be trite, guarding, or halting.  i realize now that He was never fooled anyway!
by the way, my song for the moment would be: "Pieces" by RED.